missing miss n

why lah why???? jahat ke aku ingat dia balik even dalam bilik sya pon? tak tau asal this week asik teringat dia. aku mintak tolong sya buat aku in love dengan dia. make me forget miss n. kenapa even aku dah dapat someone yg aku idamkan still i miss that bitch?? i got someone yg dekat dengan aku, love me. accept for who i am but still aku tak boleh lupa minah tu. with miss n ada perasaan something. jantung aku mcm nk pecah. aku gila nk lupakan dia. desperately....

yes i admite aku mmg takley lupakan miss n. aku just boleh move on. simpan perasaan tu dalam2.. and hoping it will disappear. just like her.. left me alone. please jgn seksa aku lagi. every time aku ingat miss n rasa sakit. mcm mana dia tggalkan aku sbagai kawan. decision yg penuh keegoan. penting ke ego kau dalam friendship kita? kau cakap aku manusia paling kau sayang. even anything happen u still love me soo much. aku tak harap apa. jadi kawan rapat je dah buat aku happy kot. tgok kau happy. itu la membe nama nya beb. kenapa kadang2 bila aku dah nak lupa miss n aku akan ingat dia balik. sayang nk lupakan kenangan aku n dia. shit kan perangai??? haha... aku kan. 

but slowly aku tau aku start suka sya.  n rasa serba salah bila still teringat miss n. aku nk move on. simple word but it's so hard to make it happen. and all my strength seems disappear when i thought about miss n. damm.. i hate myself for being such a loser.

Sometimes, i hate being Sensitive.. i wish my heart was made of stone, that way i wouldn't hurt that much when you left


if you really loved me like the way you told me, then why aren't you with me?